Was It Obvious?

When I was growing up I always asked my mum would she have liked a girl would she love me if I was a girl.  As a child I always when playing games with friends wanted to be the mummy.  I always liked to play with girls toys dolls houses etc. When playing video games I always played as the girl characters and still do.  As a child I always wanted to have a ponytail with a pink scrunchie and loved girls clothes. I only had two friends who were boys I preferred to play with girls and play girls games. Do you think my mum is right and that I am a boy called Scott and she is right to scream at me your not female your male your not called Delia to say cruel and hateful things to me.  Am I Delia has it been obvious all these years is she blind? I feel like a girl I always have.  I never liked my body when I cry and scream she screams back hatred. when I want to wear my female clothes with sheer disgust in her eyes she says to me NO YOUR NOT A GIRL YOU CAN</SPAN>'T!  I can't  see a Doctor to begin treatment she has forbidden it I can't get throne out I would have no where to go. Suicide looms' over me no more pain no more suffering. I can't take it for much longer.  If only she could see.